Strings Out The Music in Your Life....

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

ever since i came back from my 2days MBTI course i have been drain till dry. every single bit. went back for duty as usual on sunday. ya indeed. shit work again. but i knw this will be the last time i am clearing his shit work cause i decided to be harsh and cold blooded abit. i charged him. and ya. he is transfer away.

i thought monday the new intake come i will have a new guy but who knows. i don have one. not enough manpower so i need to work alone. all by myself from head to toe. starting i thought it will be easy. but never did i knw it will be so tiring. i'm totally DRAIN.. not only am i mentally drain phyiscally too. how long more do i have to go through all this. how long more do i have to endure. all alone. do anyone knw how tiring am i anot.

not only am i feeling drain in work and other part too. i have been tryin to be an understand person. i try my very best to be.. but who gonna understand my position now.. wat i'm goin through now. no one does. why am i doin so much. answer is simple. to exchange for a smile. a really lovely and happy smile. not something been force or wat.

i might seem alright on the outer. cause i don wan anybody to be worry abt me. i have been always putting a smile on my face. but inside me. i'm not. i very tiring everyday. but i push myself. i think i'm reachin my limit.. how long more i can take this kind of impact.

someone say this to me. " wa i see you from far. you look like a tek ko(bamboo)" do you knw how i feel when i hear tat. have you ever ask yourself why will you feel tat. izzit. you too long nv see me i doubt so. but wat i think the reason is you haven zi xi de look at me for a very very long time. am i right..? i'm not blaming you. just simply feelings..

sister went back to beijing already.. ya i feel happy she is around for the past one month. cause at least i got someone to talk to when i feelin lost. feelin sad feelin down. although most of the time she will drift to other things but at least, at the minimum i got someone to throw my feeling to. i use to have one more. but........ she is jus too busy. she got no time for me. i try to be understand and think for her. thinkin tat she also have her stuff to do and work to be done, so i don wish to disturb her at all. by doin all this wat will be the outcome be.. i dare not think of it anymore.

so many stuff bothering me. school fees la. work la etc. can i jus evapourate and go MIA for a period of time.. can i?? i'm lost really lost.. i need tat beam.. where izzit.?

SAD :: 5:21 PM