Strings Out The Music in Your Life....

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

By CHANGING the way one thinks, he/she CHANGE his/her Beliefs

By CHANGING his/her Beliefs, he/she CHANGE his/her Expectations

By CHANGING his/her Expectations, he/she CHANGE his/her Attitude

By CHANGING his/her Attitude, he/she CHANGE his/her Behaviour

By CHANGING his/her Behaviour, he/she CHANGE his/her Performerance

By CHANGING his/her Performance, he/she CHANGE his/her LIFE!!

SAD :: 4:43 PM

Saturday, February 21, 2009

有言道船到桥头自然直。。难道没有桥船是弯的吗？？哈哈

anyway i have always use this words first 7words on my friends and things like tat. i use to only know the meaning of this 7words. till one fine day my sister tell me there are reason and story of how this 7words comes together. after listening it actually quite make sense la.

for what i have understand from her is:
when human sail to a far away place by their boat, there are always possibility that they might meet storms and high tides things like tat. it will never be a smooth sailing. but what is the most important is the process. if they were to give up half way through the choppy sea, they might have die and their boat will capsize. but if all the crew on the boat work together and believe that they will pass through it eventually they will. after the choppy sea it will always be a smooth one and towards the horizon, towards the long awaited jetty which have been there waiting for you to alongside.

this is just the same in life. when we met a problem we need that energy to pull us through. once effort is shown thing which can be done are done. i believe the boat will be able to alongside on the right jetty and the result will show. the most important part is not the result. is the things that we have gone true. all the hardship and the tears we shed. in the end the result will shows...

continue trying some more.. think back, its not easy to let go so fast... this phrase will be my source of energy. i will pull through all the things that are trying to stop me from reaching my goal. but i don mind. i WILL pull through and i MUST. the process wont be easy but i will enjoy it. cause i am willing to do so instead of being force to do so..! In the end there is where my happiness will be. trust me!

i will mark down today as a day where my life will change for a better future!

SAD :: 3:02 PM

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

ever since i came back from my 2days MBTI course i have been drain till dry. every single bit. went back for duty as usual on sunday. ya indeed. shit work again. but i knw this will be the last time i am clearing his shit work cause i decided to be harsh and cold blooded abit. i charged him. and ya. he is transfer away.

i thought monday the new intake come i will have a new guy but who knows. i don have one. not enough manpower so i need to work alone. all by myself from head to toe. starting i thought it will be easy. but never did i knw it will be so tiring. i'm totally DRAIN.. not only am i mentally drain phyiscally too. how long more do i have to go through all this. how long more do i have to endure. all alone. do anyone knw how tiring am i anot.

not only am i feeling drain in work and other part too. i have been tryin to be an understand person. i try my very best to be.. but who gonna understand my position now.. wat i'm goin through now. no one does. why am i doin so much. answer is simple. to exchange for a smile. a really lovely and happy smile. not something been force or wat.

i might seem alright on the outer. cause i don wan anybody to be worry abt me. i have been always putting a smile on my face. but inside me. i'm not. i very tiring everyday. but i push myself. i think i'm reachin my limit.. how long more i can take this kind of impact.

someone say this to me. " wa i see you from far. you look like a tek ko(bamboo)" do you knw how i feel when i hear tat. have you ever ask yourself why will you feel tat. izzit. you too long nv see me i doubt so. but wat i think the reason is you haven zi xi de look at me for a very very long time. am i right..? i'm not blaming you. just simply feelings..

sister went back to beijing already.. ya i feel happy she is around for the past one month. cause at least i got someone to talk to when i feelin lost. feelin sad feelin down. although most of the time she will drift to other things but at least, at the minimum i got someone to throw my feeling to. i use to have one more. but........ she is jus too busy. she got no time for me. i try to be understand and think for her. thinkin tat she also have her stuff to do and work to be done, so i don wish to disturb her at all. by doin all this wat will be the outcome be.. i dare not think of it anymore.

so many stuff bothering me. school fees la. work la etc. can i jus evapourate and go MIA for a period of time.. can i?? i'm lost really lost.. i need tat beam.. where izzit.?

SAD :: 5:21 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

erm. wasnt feelin well since ytd. havin fever on and off. then complain to my sister and she ask me whether i wanna let her poke a few needle. wasnt very willing to do tat.. but if her own family member don even trust her. how will she even gain zhi xing xin. hahaz. so ya agree to it..

she did in advance tell me tat the needle she brought back wasnt very good. so might feel the pain but ok la.. hahaz. poke in tat time can feel la.. the process still ok.. and after the thing is done. i'm feelin ok now. don have the feverish feelin in me.. think its ok.. soon soon. you everytime headache right. when not one day come my house let my sister poke.. hahaz.. better be fast.. she leavin singapore on the 18th. is like erm next week.. hahaz.

pictures of the needle on my hand.. to prove she actually did it on me.. seeing is to believe... hahaz. try it.. hahaz..

hahaz. k need more rest now.. bye!

忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。要懂得忍，因为百忍才能成金。哈哈！我相信，明天会跟好！！

SAD :: 9:34 PM

Monday, February 9, 2009

忍字头一点刀遇,

乃少忍祸生招,
义能忍得心头,
努事后方知忍字高!

wasnt feeling well today.. ! shall go rest..!
and one more thing.. hahaz. i found my Valentine for 2009 valentine day le..!!

SAD :: 9:23 PM

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Went for duty this morning. went there extra early cause i got a feelin i need to clear alot of shit for ppl. indeed i have to. haiz.

reach base at around 0630hrs. when to check the 2T room.. OMG!! things not done.. i have to do.. after clearin up the shit. went to check on the boat.. OMG agian!! ya thanks really thanks to Mr Khai..

I already try my best not to take any leave le.. cause i knw. each time i come back from my leave. something some where will go wrong but what can i do. i also don wanna take on friday. but i got Dragon Boat and canoe Competition. This coming 12th &13th i'm on course. i'm goin to be dead again.. once more. save me.. no one can be trusted. i cant trust anyone. cause no one can handle my job well.. i'm not tryin to say i'm good. but i cant find anyone in LCK who can do better than me.. ya there is one. who i think is equally good as me. Aaron New..

Sent an sms to Ken Wong. hope he could do something.. but in the end.. the reply was to ask me to endure abit more.. and this time round one more person malo.. haiz.. your say easy la.. i suffering ma.. CO these few days are comin down hard on me.. askin me to answer all the things he has done. wat am i suppose to say. how am i goin to write my report.

I'm feelin so pressure but who knws. i always have to put on a mask to face ppl around me. who has ever understand the thing i'm goin through now.. no one does..! I tell myself.. its ok.. tml wit be a brighter.. the earth wont stop spinning for me..

ENDURE!! is the key!!

SAD :: 11:11 PM

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

group photo

Me & Patricia

tap tap.. ( on my shoulder of course)
Stranger: are you a Japanese??
Me: huh??
Stranger: are you a Japanese??
Me: O.o erm no, why?
Stranger: cause you look like one, plus you are wearing a jacket with the word NIPPON on it.
Me: hahaz. izzit.. but i'm not. hahaz.

strange isnt it.. i was on my way home after my duty and on the train this person just came to me from no where hahaz. ok. i didnt close down my blog. but just keep it somewhere tat nobody knows abt it. so tat when i got time.. i can fix it. abit here and there.. hahaz. erm actually not much of a diff as before la.. but erm jus few changes.. ok.. everything remain the same. Just some of the wishes i have fulfill have been taken down and new wishes updated..

erm on the 18th went you patricia's 21st bday.. pic uploaded. hahaz.

CNY.. erm.. nth much la.. just i wasnt feelin very happy abt my aunt on the very first day la.. let me go into details. first day of CNY as usual.. will go to my father side to bai nian first.. this yr abit diff.. is me the great one who drive my family around.. wahahaz. ok.. then bai nian la.. this and tat la.. next stop my mother side.. same la.. hahaz...... at night.. went to send my family home.. on the way drop my dad first cause he wants to go home first while the others wanna go chiong pang to buy KFC..

finish buyin KFC.. while on the way home.. here comes the part where i'm most dulan wit..
Mum: jus now your gugu were talkin to me abt you lehz.
Me: then wat they say?
Mum: they say they heard tat you're studyin. and ask me who pay for your school fees.. then i say me lorz.
Me: then
Mum: they say why don wanna ask you to pay yourself. then i say no la.. he in NS.. where got so much $$ to pay.. then your gugu say.. then don bother abt him la. ask him to finish NS then come out to study lorz. i see he like not very good to you like tat.. why bother so much abt him.. my son i also don care abt him.. wanna study. earn his own money then study.
Me: then wat you say.
Mum: nth lorz. jus smile smile lorz
Me: wa you also wont help me de lorz. ppl like tat say your son you jus smile smile.. Mum: got la got la.. i say you look like tat but you are not la.. i got say i go hong kong tat even you not enough $$ to spend le you still give me S$200
sister: among the 3 children Russel 最有你的心！

inside my heart i knw she didnt say.. inside me i knw she jus smile only. she didnt voice out for me. i knw. she say she did jus to make me feel abit better at tat very moment. i knew it but i kept quiet. i got nth to say. ya. i may look like i am not very good to my mum. but deep down she should knw i'm not wat i look like. i'm not angry abt anything. i'm upset more than anything. you woke me up early in the mornin on my only off tat on tat week at 7plus amost to 8 jus to ask me to send to bugis. cause you say you don knw how to go and you goin to HK wanna go pray.. fine! i woke up i drive you there. i was sleepin soundly you call and say you at the market carry alot of things.. you alone cant carry.. i nv say much i go help you. you call and say you admit into the hospital. i immdiately take urgent leave and rush down by cab from Lim Chu Kang all the way to TTS.. have you ever spare a thought on how i feel.. haiz. don wanna say le la..

don feel like writin le. friday Dragon Boat Competition. hahaz.

My 2009 resolution.. hahaz.. only she knws. kekez!!

SAD :: 7:06 PM